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By Damainion Ewell

You say…

LORD, my heart is broken into a puzzle that can never be put together. Every time I turn around, I get stepped on and betrayed. They said I would never be good enough. They said that I was less than nothing. They said that I would never amount to anything. They said that I was ugly and undeniably stupid. They said I was too afraid to stand up for myself. I am ashamed. I am not loved. I am not appreciated. I…

And the LORD says…

I AM THE LORD! I am He that liveth, and was dead![a] I am He that comforteth you![b] I am your strength when your muscles cannot sustain another movement. I am your lover when this world hates every breath you take. I am the one who proclaimed your destiny even before the foundation of the world. I am your bandage when your soul bleeds with misery. I am the well that you drink from when your throat becomes parched. I am the beauty that the world sees when they see you. I…

You say…

He came into my bedroom in the middle of the night. He curled up next to me in my bed and touched me. I scooted to the edge of the bed, but he inched closer. He touched me again and again. He forcefully grabbed my hand and made me touch him. He made me touch him until I was sick to my stomach. His hot breathe encapsulated my neck with evil and wicked pleasure. I cried so loud, yet no one heard me. I wept, yet no one offered me a tissue. I have carried this burden for years. I cannot stand to look myself. I feel dirty. I feel used. I…

And the LORD says…

I AM THE LORD! I am thy salvation![c] I am thy shield![d] I am the one that allowed him to go so far, but no further. I am the one who heard your cry when others chose to look the other way. I am the one who kept you from destroying yourself. I am the one who kept you occupied when your mind became idle. When you picked up the knife to slit your wrist, I stopped you dead in your tracks. When you picked up the bottle and poured out all the pills, I am the one who kept your mouth shut and made your throat refuse to swallow. It is my blood that cleanses you, and the power of my anointing that carries your burden. I bore the burden and carried the cross for you! I…

You say…

I cannot sleep. The results of the test came back positive. The doctors told me that I have less than a month to live. My eyes are bloody from the constant fatigue. My hair is falling out, follicle after follicle. The sparkle in my eye has turned into a mere fizzle of hopelessness. The cloud cover has disguised the splendor of the sun rays that used to start my day. My body is weak, and my skin is peeling away. My nails have become brittle, and my countenance has become one shattered disappointment after another. My effervescence is gone. My spirited disposition has died. I cannot take another step. I cannot make it. I…

And the LORD says…

I AM THE LORD! I am the LORD that healeth thee![e] I am the LORD, the God of all flesh![f] I am the report that you are going to believe. I am the One who healed the woman with the issue of blood with just a touch of the hem of My garment. I am the One who told Jairus’s daughter to arise, even as she lay dead. I am the One who commanded Lazarus to come forth from his grave, even as he lay dead for six days and was wrapped in bandages. I am the One who returned eyesight to Bartimaeus, just because his faith was greater than all those who were around him. I am the One that cause the lame to walk and the blind to see. I am the One who casts out devils for My namesake. I am the One that makes demons tremble at the mere thought of My wrath. Do not believe in that book of remedies to heal you. Do not rely on that diet that you hate so much to heal you. Do not count on the doctor to do what only I am able to do. I am the beginning and the end. I am Jehovah-Ropheka, the LORD your healer. I…

You say…

I have fallen down time after time. I am an absolute failure and on the verge of a nervous breakdown. My spouse swore their undying love, but suddenly, their love died and out the door they went. My house is in foreclosure and my spirit is bankrupt. I am an empty vessel and a mere shell of the vivaciousness that I was known for. I want to get high just to numb the pain. I want to get drunk to escape the seemingly permanent state that I am in. I see the cliff from a distance. I see the edge draw closer and closer. I want to jump off of it. I…

And the LORD says…

I AM THE LORD! I am the LORD thy God which leadeth thee by the way that thou shouldest go![g] I am with thee to deliver thee![h] I am the One who will catch you in the midst of your fall. I swore by My precious blood that I would never leave you. I left my throne in glory to comfort you in times of trouble. I am your protection from the war that is waged in your mind. I am the solace that keeps your soul in perfect peace. Stop running! Stop hiding! Do not be afraid. Do not be anxious. Let Me wipe that tear away. Let Me fix that broken heart. Let Me become the source of your love and your reason for living. I will carry you. I will captivate your mind. I am the One. It is I…

JESUS.


[a] Revelation 1:18

[b] Isaiah 51:12

[c] Psalms 35:3

[d] Genesis 15:1

[e] Exodus 15:26

[f] Jeremiah 32:27

[g] Isaiah 48:17

[h] Jeremiah 1:8